A Closure and An Opening

this has been my home for the past year. its closure for renovation starting on march 4 kills my heart. and the rest of my colleagues.

the closure is forcing me to decide fast. is it time to go back to the intensive?

In Crisis

as far as i know, monster mom is in midlife crisis. coupled with her actual menopause, her constant "temper tantrums" and impatience were just some of the highlights.

monster mom never really had to work in life. after marrying dad, she spent her life taking care of us. with the help of yayas. she never practiced her profession which was midwifery. now that we are all grown up and the financial situation of the family is really not that pleasing, she kinda makes us feel that the life she is living right now is something she did now dream of.

complains. whining. comparisons to the life of her friends at the gym. my dad, my brothers and my sister- they just remain silent. i feel like her crisis is something that affects us all.

i don't know. i guess she has to conquer her monsters after all.

Help

i should have finished three chapters of my modules for oncology nursing. but, i could not help but blog. good luck to me.

i need help. my procrastination is getting worse.

Enter the Dragon

had to have a picture with these stuff to drive the bad spirits away...

The Solution

this bag will solve my problematic diet. after beings stressed out from work and domestic issues, i got this rucksack. here comes poverty diet!

Big Better Burgers

went bbb'ing two days ago together with yash. i think i have forgotten already that i should eat wisely.

Reward

this shoe represents the missed christmas dinner and the church service on new year's eve.

The List

be kinder. eliminate hate and doubt. smile often. eat healthy. walk more. understand more. extend patience. imbibe sincerity. do not procrastinate. start small. start something. read more. avoid complacency. meet deadlines. respect deadlines. recognize authority. value friendship more. be more expressive of feelings. say thank you and please. mean your words. say sorry. appreciate people and their efforts.

Please Be Good

goodbye january. along with the numerous patient admissions, stat intubation, crazy demands, rude people on the phone and difficult people on my shift as a charge nurse. please take with you the illogical cravings and mindless eating be it at home or at work.

may i find time to finally enroll myself in a swimming class. may you take also the discontent in my heart. bring with you the needless irritation from the smallest details that i observe.

february, please be good to me.

Food in My Mind

thai.

for like two days, i have been eating thai food. bagoong rice. spring rolls. seafood fired rice.

yeah, i have been eating like i was starved for five months. and then, here comes work making me feel like i deserved that cake and that hot fudge sundae.

yash, if you are reading this, do not feel bad. i wanted to eat those foods and i just can't stop.

here's the thing, haste really makes waste. so for now, i would like to take my time to do all the things that i love and all the things that i have to do.

including taking time to think of the next healthy meal.