Champions

champions at last!

now, i have to champion school, work and my personal life! roar!

Feb

february,

you gave me a different ride of emotions. shitty, exciting, stressful, rewarding and all the same time fun.

i do not know what to say but thank you and good bye.

sincerely yours,

charl

Stronger

maintaining a profession is one big challenge.

truth is, our lives do not revolve in our profession alone. we have our families, friends, our partners and the world throwing crazy things upon our shoulders.

you are not alone. i offer my prayers for you and your father.

you know who you are.

Leona

hi.

been working hard the past week as i was on my own- no preceptor and no one to help me most of the time.

not that i am complaining but i can hardly feel that i still have life outside work. within one week of work, i had three 12-hour shifts which meant that i have already 12 hours of over time.

and oh, a senior staff commented that i had the most number of overtime work. is this what you call the baptism of fire?

well, anyway.

i had a lot of stories to tell but i do not know where to begin. shall i begin with patient relatives who are so demanding? or those patients who make me smile and appreciate my profession?

then there are these people at work who spew bad vibes that makes you wanna escape work. there are also the consultants (doctors) which they give you this feeling of being at the mercy of a god.

plus, i have three assignments due. two of which i think are at least a month old late.

i do not know where to start.

so there, i am still here. hopefully, better in time.

Lonesome

I like being alone.

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.

Source: tokyo-tea

Sucker Punch

there are times when i want to punch myself in the stomach. just like now.

you see, i am actually preparing my documents since i was already recommended for hiring. meaning, i will be soon on my own without a preceptor to check my work.

i am actually grateful for my preceptor. she stands by me and listens to my side. ever patient and soft spoken, i see some similarities between me and her. now these things make me want to punch myself harder.

how could i not inform her that i was not going to report for work since we were given time to complete our documents?

one simple text and it will be all over. but, i did not do it.

Ring Ring Ring

i think i am going to change my ring tone for now. my current ring tone has attracted a lot of dreaded calls.

guess i also need to work my ass off too cause these calls are from my current work....

Package Deal

hi!

im back. but not for long. right about now, i am late for nearly two weeks for my assignments in my class and i still need to lose about three kilos so i can definitely say i am safe for hiring.

work is work. still adapting to the routines and to the hugeness of patient assignment. before, i only handled two patients for each shift. now? minimum of three!

my preceptor is the best. though we had a rough time two weeks ago (an incident which i think was a little bit insignificant), i will still say that i got the best one. very patient and very kind to my needs as a newbie.

my new work has a lot of great people. except for two staff nurses who are bitching about their greatness and our weaknesses. well, they are everywhere so i guess i have to deal with them just like the old times.

sleep has been a luxury for me. i am slowly becoming a panda with the eye bags that accompany me during night and afternoon shifts. just like the good old days.

for now, i am going to savor each learning moment and try to be the best that i can be. i have to remind myself that this is what i have been yearning for since 2010.

so the complicated routines, expectations, work load and crazy schedule, they are all part of this blessing.

hey you, how are you doing? i hope you are fine.

Released

allow me to release some mildly-rich temper that i have been keeping for the past 20 million days.

arrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

why must bitches exist in this world?

i can't.

Good

wow. it has been 12 days since i did my last post here. this is happening again- me losing track of time due to work and away from my blog.

i am not complaining though. even if i had to sleep at 8 am and wake up at 5pm to work. or assist patients void, like at least every hour.

this is my life and this is what i asked for. i am okay and i am liking the way things are.

so, how are you? i hope you are all good.