Sunday, October 28, 2012


well, i stood in awe how the words of mark suddenly came into reality.

"isa kang madalahira at madiwarang nurse."

time and again, it has been my goal to be the very kind and sweet person that i envision to be. but, i always fail. it is like i get into this skin- cynical, excessive realist and a no-nonsense approach to almost anything and everything.

even if i attribute it to the way i was brought up, yash tells me to let go of it. that i am too old to know what is right and with that knowledge, i should have banished whatever that is keeping me to be truly happy.

and i guess, work is pushing me also to take on that skin and be at my defensive state in every shift.

we will see...

Thursday, October 25, 2012


will try to live by these words...

Friday, October 12, 2012


every september and october, changes always come. right now, i am currently waiting for a chance to work abroad. again.

yes, i am that fucked up in that i do not finish my contract and all. it is not that i do not want to finish it. it is just that my family's finances force me to do it. in truth, i really love my job now though it drains me of energy and motivation.

but yeah, i will cross the river when i get there. in the mean time, i'd bury my ears first with ed sheeran's voice.