mahal ata ang pagmomove on.
today, i think i spent a lot trying to distract myself from feeling the pain of being heart broken. bumili ako ng mahusay na unan to make me sleep better at para mawala na ang pagnanasang may makayakap sa pagtulog. bumili rin ako ng dalawang pantalon dahil hindi na angkop ang sukat ng mga dati kong pantalon. sa wakas, nagbunga na rin ang aking paggym at hindi consistent na pagkain ng healthy. haha.
bumili rin ako ng beanie na kahalili ng bigay ni besty Matet. malapit na ang taglamig. kailangang warm and comfy. bumili rin ako ng bagong short na pangwork out at jogging pants na gagamitin ko sa pagpunta sa gym ngayong winter. bumili rin ako ng sapatos. sapatos na two-in-one na gusto ko, brogue na high cut perfect for winter!
in all these things, nakalimot ako kahit panandalian. hindi ko na siya tinext ngayon. tuwing alas nuwebe ng umaga, bumabati ako sa pamamagitan ng text ng good morning. may kasama pang smiley. maghihintay ako pagkatapos. madalas, pagsapit ng alas diyes y medya ng umaga siya sasagot ng good morning. mali, morning lang pala ang lagi niyang sagot.
sa mga nakaraang araw, nagiging mapakla ang sagot niya. disinterest at pagkauyam ang aking nadarama sa pagbasa ng mga text niya. at finally, ako na laging nagbibigay ng payo sa mga kaibigan tungkol sa pag-ibig ay nangailangan na ng payo. wag ko daw itext. hayaang madama niya ang aking pagkawala. pero, hindi ako nakatiis. tinext ko pa rin siya kahapon. at yun na nga, isang sampal ng kawalang gana sa pagsagot ang aking natanggap.
masakit pala ang hindi pahalagahan ng isang tao na naging mahalaga na sayo. pero promise, hindi muna ako mamimili sa ngayon.
Saturday, October 24, 2015
Sunday, October 4, 2015
this post was supposed to be written during my birthday. however, life has been treating me really well so i did not have the time to do it. i just turned thirty last september 28. never in my life did i celebrate my birthday in a big way. i had friends visiting and i had to prepare a big dinner with the help of my housemates/ friends.
at the comfort of my room, i look back to the blessings i have been given up to this point in my life...
1.) reaching the big 30- i just had to celebrate it. i feel that it is a good age to be at.
2.) got my PIN- i am now a registered nurse here! yay! i have my own patients now.
3.) new friends- i think i am getting better at this.
4.) lovely workmates!
5.) opportunity to be at a hillsong church!
6.) my travel to different places!
roman baths at bath
7.) me getting fitter and stronger! been going to the gym for five months now. i see some progress. small ones but significant one.
8.) personal life is alright. me on the process of exploring. ;-)
9.) this: a very good friend.
10.) just the chance to be here. to be able to work and make progress with living. i may be far from my family but i know it is only in distance but not in love.
i have a lot to thank for. a single post is not enough but i will try to fill in more.
Monday, March 23, 2015
today marks my second month here in cambridge. in that span of time, i did experience a lot of firsts in my life. like my first formal dinner as shown above. my first charity event. my first time to really dress up for an occasion. my first sleepover with a colleague's house outside cambridge. my first house party which we hosted. my first time to cook for the guests of our house party. my first gym membership. my first workout at a gym.
the list i believe shall go on in the coming days. i am just trying to open myself to everything that is in front of me. before, i have limited myself and never really got outside of my comfort zone. so yeah, this is me now.
Sunday, March 8, 2015
it's been a month and two weeks now since i left philippines to start a new life in the united kingdom. it has been that long that i have not really blogged anything about my life in general.
i came here in cambridge in the middle of the winter season. i thought the temperatures at mt. pulag were the coldest but i have never really been into a place with winter season so there, yeah, welcome to u.k. i can still recall my last days in the philippines. i was still going through my same routine- wake up late, surf the net, eat lunch, sleep, watch t.v., help in some chores, eat dinner, jog, take a bath, surf the net and sleep late. that summed up my life. but by january 20, it finally dawned on me that i will be leaving for another place to live and start working again. it finally made sense to me the need to pack my life of 20+ years in a luggage limited to 30 kgs.
looking back, i waited eagerly for january 22. i have been waiting for it that somehow, i missed enjoying the things that i can back home. seriously, i miss the sun. i can count on my fingers that number of days when the sun shone brightly. i miss the food- the flavor and the richness of taste that we have back home. i find the food here bland but somehow, it tends to be on the healthier side. i miss my friends. i miss my family.
but then, there are a lot of things to be thankful for. it begins with the opportunity to be here and that i get to work in one big reputable medical institution. i get to live in a more comfortable life thinking just about my work and my schooling. patients here are generally nicer and well, more patient. in some areas of work itself, they tend to be lighter but the nurse-patient ratio is still something that i should get used to. back home, i was used to work with five-six patients but here, it tends to double up to ten to 11 per one nurse.
for now, i am just gonna enjoy the things that i can. learn everything that i can. and love everything that i can.