most of the days, my mind is just floating. then, i get to work and force myself to change into nursing mode. after that, balik na naman sa dati- internet addict, constant procrastinator and forever dreamer. when combined, i accomplish nothing and i always end up asking myself kung ano na nangyari sa buhay ko.
i am always reminded of the realization that i had in the past- when things are going great, complacency sets in. it is this battle that i have struggled for the longest time. case in point, my masters. when i started, i was still at the office and to compensate for not being a "true" nurse, i enrolled for my masters degree. i was great back then. now as a bedside nurse, i could not care less for the pending requirements that i have. i feel like a wasted a lot of effort and money.
then, there is this pursuit to relearn all things that i have been doing in the past. the drive is there but the discipline to read and to research seems to be in a stagnant critical low level. hence, the constant posting of motivational messages.
hope it works.