Critical Low

most of the days, my mind is just floating.  then, i get to work and force myself to change into nursing mode.  after that, balik na naman sa dati- internet addict, constant procrastinator and forever dreamer.  when combined, i accomplish nothing and i always end up asking myself kung ano na nangyari sa buhay ko.

i am always reminded of the realization that i had in the past- when things are going great, complacency sets in.  it is this battle that i have struggled for the longest time.  case in point, my masters.  when i started, i was still at the office and to compensate for not being a "true" nurse, i enrolled for my masters degree.  i was great back then.  now as a bedside nurse, i could not care less for the pending requirements that i have.  i feel like a wasted a lot of effort and money.

then, there is this pursuit to relearn all things that i have been doing in the past.  the drive is there but the discipline to read and to research seems to be in a stagnant critical low level.  hence, the constant posting of motivational messages.

hope it works.

Moving Up

my current anthem.

after more than a week at the intensive unit, i feel like a lost soul trying to find my way to heaven.  four years is way too long for me to be able to activate that nurse in me who took pleasure in caring for critically ill patients.

but, i am learning. again.

Try

trying to be a good son as well...