tonight i will be on a night shift followed by a rest day then a morning shift. so yeah, my rest day will be spent on the bed sleeping. but no, i will go home and enjoy my day. as i have written here, i will spend more time with my family in any way i can.
two days ago, we admitted a patient in our unit. upon admission, her condition was not stable and so after just more than an hour, she died. while doing post-mortem care, her daughter told me that she should not have left her mom in her last hour. she told me her mother was afraid to die and that she never wanted to be left behind.
i did what i had to do and told her that her mere presence here is enough. then silence.
you see, i sometimes dread going home because of some issues with my family- finances, relatives and anything under the sun. but growing old, i believe that no one can replace them.
so yeah, spend time with your loved ones anytime you can and always keep in mind that our days our numbered.