for someone who thought has figured out his life, i thought everything was in accordance to my plan. hindi pala. things happen.
you wanted change and it happened. suddenly, you felt like that change has put you into an unfamiliar territory. hindi yata ako nakapaghanda sa mga pagbabago. i think i am depressed clinically.
nawalan ako ng motivation. sa buhay, sa career, sa fitness at sa buhay pag-ibig. i could not be bothered to clean my room. or ayusin man lang ang mga documents. hindi ko rin maituloy ang pagbabasa ng mga books about nursing.
i stopped my gym membership. masyadong magastos. i have not been into a date. like in ages. pumapalya pa ang pagyoyoga. alam kong tapos na ang quarter life crisis ko pero ang aga naman ata ng midlfe crisis.
eto pa, nagbirthday ako two weeks ago. i was working. so walang formal celebration. kumain lang tapos yun na. what a contrast from a year ago when i had friends coming for my party. this year wala.
but i am hoping this will all change soon. so i am making this post dahil masyado nang matagal na wala akong post.
will try to write more...