after one post, i feel like i am succumbing to self-doubt and fear of the unknown. irrational, i could not get my mind to think and believe that with God's grace, everything will work for our good.
if you will look into my past, i have made a lot of stupid decisions. years later, i am looking into it with a different perspective. triumphant. fulfilled. but now what?
i know the stakes are higher now. more risks. if i will fuck up on this, what will be left for me are regrets and self-pity.
i hope not. i dare myself not.