benj is still not talking to me.
at least in the way i think he would normally chat with me. no buzz. no hi. no mabu-mabu hey. just plain nothing on my work computer.
and it feels sad. depressing. at the same time, it feels weird. like tears are flowing if i ever lose my boo.
benj is really that important to me.
if you are reading this, forgive me benj. i am sorry.