it was one of those calls in which dread was clearly there. it was needed. necessary and a monumental step to mobilize what has been stagnant- my will to try again. until it was told to me that i am not there yet. simply, i am not what they are looking for.
another tumble. another dead end. another chapter. another search. another punch in my ego. another blow to whatever that remains to my determination. another setback and yet another failure.
where is wisdom when i needed it most? where is courage when i had to try again? where is faith when my soul is hurting? where is love when a hug would do the trick? where is tomorrow when today is all you have been dreaming?
life can never be this good. good in crushing one's spirit. cheers!