it is the third month. after kinda successfully bringing into act the first two goals for the year, i am on the brink of losing it all to this third month.
my mind is clouded with a lot thoughts and apprehensions that my ability to see clearly with it is compromised. no amount of motivation and pep talk to myself can dismantle the shield i have been wearing- the shield of what ifs and doubts.
i hate myself for acting like this.
tomorrow will be the day that will complete my waiting game for the visa i applied for. and hopefully tomorrow, the papers have been received by the nmc.
seeing nam all over europe, i just want to pack my things now so i can finally go to london. but this, has to be earned.
so for the third month: earn.