i just asked benj to slap me.
but he can't so it will not really work. i am in desperate need of a talk that will somehow tell me that, "hey, don't worry. God is in control. you have done everything that you can. just be still and know that He is your God."
the problem with one losing faith is that it erases whatever foundation you had before. all the struggles and all the hardships won seem to be buried with a mountain of doubt and impatience.
and i just can't seem to get out of this mountain...